by Erin Dunlevy
I woke up this morning in a cabin in northern Minnesota,
safely nestled on a lake less than a half day’s drive from the Canadian
border. The morning news was on and
nearly all of the 21 members of my extended family, gathered for our yearly
reunion, quieted to hear the details of the act of white nationalist terrorism
that took place in Charlottesville the day before. Some expressed outrage (this side of the
family “would have voted for Obama for a third time”) but most remained silently
disturbed, brows furrowed in an expression of pale despair as 45 read a
statement condemning the violence that occurred “on all sides.”
As I looked around at the 4 generations gathered by the television
(all white) and glanced back at the outraged white crowd on the screen, an
understanding bubbled up to my consciousness.
Those are our people.
In that crowd of violent white nationalists, I recognized
the faces on the screen. These men and
women could be my cousins, aunts or uncles. If I were to walk among them in a
public place without knowing who they are or what they believe, I would likely
not feel unsafe. And this is what brings
me to my understanding of what we as white folks must begin to take on as our
loved ones of color are increasingly threatened in a white supremacist state
newly emboldened with direct support from the highest seat of our government. We must be willing to acknowledge that white
supremacy is a kind of belonging that does not by any means require white skin
for inclusion, but that does grant automatic lifetime membership for those who
look the part. This is painful to admit.
And when I’m working with other white
folks I usually find this to be one of the first hurdles; the “but not me…” intellectual rejection of
the fact that white supremacy loves us and we will always have a home in its
arms.
What do anti-racist white folks do with this
acceptance? What do we do when we
recognize and acknowledge that these are
our people?
I struggle with the idea that I have the right answer for
anything. Part of the personal work of
undoing my own white supremacy is moving away from the idea that I know what’s
best for people and that I have all the answers. Additionally, the only thing I
can truly say I have expertise on is my own failures in constructing my
anti-racist identity. But with that
said, white silence is proof of white supremacy’s embrace and our comfort
within it. So in addition to the
obvious, (i.e. participation in local activist events that pop up in the coming
days- a nationwide list of actions can be found here)
I can tell you what I’m thinking about and planning for, and how I hope to act
my way out of despair’s paralysis.
We need to reach out
to our people, so that they will reach out to theirs. I drove to town for cell service and called
my dad right away. We talked about what
happened and I asked him how he was going to talk about it with my much younger
sisters. I told him I would call our
family in North Carolina. My southern
uncle was police for nearly 30 years.
When white violence occurs, I reach out to him. Our relationship has
grown and deepened as we construct an anti-racist family identity together. As
Black and Brown bodies continue to be assaulted with impunity, I want to know
that my tribe is talking about it, engaging and acting.
We need to participate
in experiences of Black and Brown truth-telling and express gratitude for Black
and Brown truth. The Truth Telling
Project of Ferguson is planning to initiate a decade of truth telling and asking
white allies to aid in processes of healing for people of color by engaging in
formal and informal listening for liberation.
TTP has organized a truth telling event on August 17th that
I’ll be a part of. Info about that event
can be found here.
We can engage with organizations like the Truth Telling Project and the
Movement for Black Lives and organize truth telling and transformative and
restorative justice events in our communities. We can bring members of our
white tribes to these events with the understanding that we are there to be
active(ist) listeners.
For those of us participating in local protests or organized
action events, the Catalyst Project has just
released a new pamphlet, "A
Troublemakers' Guide: Principles for Racial Justice Activists in the Face of
State Repression." This pamphlet gives practical information about how
the state represses activist movements and offers solid guidelines for white
activists around issues of non-compliance, which is urgent for those of us who
work in schools where young people are increasingly at risk for arrest or
deportation.
Finally, I am considering my
long-term plans as an educator. I need
to be working in white spaces in which this deeply rooted historical racism is
reproducing itself in schools and institutions.
How am I creating inroads toward working in school districts where young
people have grown up around revered statues of Robert E. Lee? How can I extend my reach as a white
educator?
How do we as white people truly start to take
responsibility for our people?
I don’t know what the answer is but as a
white anti-racist this needs to be my line of inquiry as I move forward. Every good teacher knows a line of inquiry drives deep exploration
of a given topic, and a good line of inquiry is divergent- it leads to
multiple, expanding answers. I reached out to some family today and
learned about extended family in Alabama. I’m thinking I’ll start there.
I can’t say how it will go but it’s a start. Because when I was a young
teacher, thinking I was the shit for some reason or another somebody wise told
me;
“You think you got this. You don’t got this.”
For my work as an anti-racist this may have been the best
advice I’ve ever gotten. The minute I think I’ve done it, that I’ve made
my contribution, that the work is complete, I’m nestled back into White
supremacy’s embrace, tucked in for the night, choosing safety over life.
Not this time. These are my people and I need to be accountable for
them.
This article was originally published on https://creadnyc.org
Erin Dunlevy is the Founder and Director at Restorative Practice NYC, a Restorative Justice Trainer and Equity Coach with over 15 years of professional experience in NYC public schools. Erin works to develop strategic solutions around issues of critical consciousness and anti-racism in schools. Particular areas of focus include developing a restorative model for critical consciousness, anti-bias strategies and examining the impact of race, power, and privilege in schools and professional settings. Her work has also focused on developing and implementing strategies for addressing equity issues within classrooms, specifically as an advocate for Culturally Responsive Pedagogy, Native Language Arts Education and restorative circles in core content classes. Currently Erin works for the NYC Restorative Justice Pilot Initiative and the NYPD Warning Card Pilot Initiative and and is a member of the Advisory Board of the Truth Telling Project of Ferguson.



